Foot prints in the sand

I've been thinking,
about a lot of nothing really.
The fact that i can't stop thinking what i think,
Its killing me more and more as the thought comes permanent.

Truth be told I've never felt this way,
and not the way where i say its different this time!
I mean this shit cause I've never been more real with you,
You know I'm coming real cause..I'm going slow with this note.

I got my fam bam always talking to me,
Cause i get so confused on what to do or think.
But i can't help it sometimes i think to hard and you know that,
My fam bam knows it cause she goes through the stress with me. (even tho i really shouldn't be stressing)

I know I'm not the best thing out there,
But for some reason you seem to be digging me as much as i do you.
And don't get me wrong I mean I'm loving everything i get from you,
Cause I know that it's a privilege to even have you.

The more i try to write on how to explain what you mean to me,
I can feel.. I can feel how close you really are to me.
Its not like i need you cause i don't,
But i want to and you know how that is.

I felt like running around being like an usual guy,
but they way you got me down.
i feel so good that i got you holding me down the way you do;)
You know how i feel and there's nothing i wouldn't do for you.

Last thoughts..
The thing different about us baby..
Is that when we walk with our foot steps in the sand..
Our foot prints never wash away with the water tide.
They stay full,
Cause just like you and me,
We ain't going no where.

Don't turn your back on me..

Its not really about how you stand with me,
and its not really about who i come around with.
the movement you turn your back to me,
and try to drop or hurt me for what I like to be.

I'm a very good friend to the ones I love,
and i don't usually play around with what goes on.
I'm more grown up in m own state of mind,
And when the day comes for us to all grow up.

Don't think about the ones who can't mature enough,
Pay no attention to the ones who really slack on the life around you.
Become better and richer than your parents ever was,
Isn't that what they want for you anyways?

Baby from the start this has been a weird thing going,
But you and me..sounds good doesn't it ?
Everyone talks about how we act so much alike,
really and truly I miss you more everyday that goes by without seeing those eyes of yours.

For my friends who act all tough,
but deep down just don't have anyone really to talk to.
Come and lets talk about anything you want,
Because I hear things more than you need to say.

The people who are doing the best they can,
and for some reason you think it's not doing helping at all.
Trust me it helps out for more than one way than you think,
the moment you stop..life hits you harder than hurricane Trina.

Last thoughts...
I feel things others don't feel,
I done somethings I'm not proud of,
But at least I can have the god given chance to make a difference in what i do.

If someone is not the way you want them to be,
Don't change them,
They will get there day other day.

No More

When your in to deep,
dig deeper cause I'm pretty sure your not alone.
when you think your alone,
look around and get help from the ones you love.

i was taught never to give up,
just like everyone else.
but the difference is that its me not you,
and when i get to too deep i run back cause I'm never ready.

always come out strong,
thinking that I'm to hard for this ish.
but really,
i can get on the soft side,
let em know what i''m really about,
show em all what i can really do.

baby i love you,
and I'm think I'm ready to get open with you.
don't get me wrong i never done anything like this,
and me just exposing it shows that I'm trying to be real with you,
but don't take what i do for you for granted.

and for my friend that's like my sister to me Nellb,
you been there since the first day i meet you,
even when we fought it was always for fun,
even if we got mad couple seconds later laughing and making jokes again.

for the close friends of mine,
ill make sure you'll make it too.
i will never forget about the people who changed my life in a way,
you mean alot to me you really do.

If i was to do something stupid,
just know i care about you all.
don't take what i say lightly,
I'm capable of doing more dumb ish than you can think of.

i would never do anything to hurt you at all,
but what i do happens for a reason.
so if i end there i mean we all go there at one time or another,
but if i go sooner than the rest know that i never gave up,
never on you or on anyone when thier down so do the same for others.

last thoughts...
this is the end isn't it.
fun while it lasted :) :(
do what you gotta do to make your name stay.

I Want Is Different From what i have

i could bore you with what i have,
or i could bore you with what i want.
i ain't about that though,
everyone who knows me knows I'm striaght.

Its never about who or how many people you know,
its whether you can fool em enough to get what you want.
you think your so good at doing what you do,
you can never be better than me i only say that cause I'm a lightskin.

haaha i bet you thinking this lightskin is cocky now,
but don't get it twisted uh i ain't cocky I'm just straight nothing else to it.
do you got a problem with me i mean do you got a problem with what i stand for?
well come handle your shit with me if not sit back down stop wasting peoples time just for your show.

This is my time and i ain't sharing with no one,
not that i mean i just like to share.
Not my fault that you do,
well you have no choice your girl runs you more than you on her.

I say that with disappointment not really being positive,
the only time i try to be positive is when your moms is flirting with me.
i mean I'll flirt back only is she good enough,
if not than I'm not afraid to bring her in the back i mean its just a brown paper bag.

I'm a hold that money still,
why they bother bring you in to the circle its not big enough.
sorry to say but since they ain't got the nuts to say it i will with pleasure,
to many girls come to you for the wrong reasons,
why you think they leave you after the first minute,
not saying you a minute many i mean i would never expose that,
but at least try to last longer for my sake,
they keep coming to me saying "pleasure me "

that took alot of me,
I'm tired now.
what are you crazy to believe everything i say,
I'm just getting started this is my year.

Last thoughts ....
hold your shit down hard
cause someone can come along being easier than you..
take everything thing you own from the cars to your house
you'll be on the streets with your moms only difference she getting money her way
and someone being easier i mean me hahahah hold that don't quote meh...

Words Unspoken

Ever had the feeling
where in you want to speak up
but than just thought why bother
i mean you think to your self
" this ain't going to do nothing "
but your wrong...
the words that are unspoken are abused in another way
they can pile up and get you at your weakest times
when i say this you want to be the one able to express them selves
take chances because this is one life you have to make it worth it why hold back.

as i go day by day
i think to my self
i'm better than you thought i'd ever be
but little as you know the thoughts i have are strong
stronger that i can try to hold back
words thoughts can make you go through alot more than what something else to someone else
but only you know how it is for you and thinking is a pwoerful thing
to have that as many people think open your eyes to what you really see
nothing lastes forever
just like your life on this place we call earth
your taught you do things for your self
so grab shit pull a trick and run


last thoughts
why is it people say thier okay face to face
but when walked around the back head down with tears you can't fight ..

Song

Nothing to lose
Something to gain
i am hear for you
and thats all there is to it
we never paid any attention to anyone
and why should we start now
what we have is something
it not like it can turn to nothing
we both feel the same way
all i need you to know..
let me think
well you know that i love you
but not so much in love with you just yet
i mean we still kinda on that early stage
and i not trying to sound mean at all
but at the same time you gotta know where i'm coming from
you are the only one to make me feel this way
i have a history and all you do is brush it off like nothing
one of the best things about you is your eyes
i mean they are like gold to me with little dimond sparkles when they shine
we so weird at sometimes its funny to see how we react to somethings
the way you act with me is not what i'm used to
i mean with the fighting and the cusing all the bad things
we have none of that but even when we fight just a little
hahaha we just kiss and make up just like we wresling back when we were kids
i gotta come out with this
no holding me back
now you know as well as everyone else
that
i love you and
thats everything to gain
listen ....

Swag Over

Put them sawg on like we put them vans on
wen i step up to the plate they be like damn back up
nah i aint cocky but when it comes to the words i come quick
i know how to make em get on dem kness like their girls do when we party
swag over the roof just like your moms when she jumpped off
we aint got time to put up with em haters
got them hats flowing out my closet
and i don't mean my fitteds im talkin about them cats
im on that next level ish
i say waht i want
get that the next day only cuz i got my swag over the top
it aint much to me i grab what i want just walk out
they be stunned to see me in thier stores they don't bother charging me nothing
you rockin with me trust me when i say life is easy
but ill let you in a our secret
listen.....man get the fuk out my face when i turn my swag over
hahaha

Over-Whelmed

I've been through to much to even remember anything
and when i start to think back some stuff come back blury
maybe because i'd tried before to get rid of that thought before
everyone always talking about hwo its only a matter of time
before the shit is all good and the good times come
well your wrong because you have to remember
it helps you to become something that makes you stronger in the mind as is
so when i say think about what i say
don't take to much feeling other wise you might get stuck
only because i have to much to say
take what i say in to conserdiation but don't remenis to had on what the fact is

Moved from place to place
delt with alot of things over the years
brother me to the point im at right now
and i can only say im not feeling to good as is
its back to cover your feelings
so don't let it build up becasue it can hurt you in the future
....
when i come across problems now its like a million to one
i think of that million which makes it harder on me
but its something that im used to or been used to
its like when a guy bust in the girls mouth and she took to much and she chocks
hahah thats what you get when you start to think how i think
i'm the only me i've done what i do and the way i am makes me
i am the becoming of something strong
something that you have never thought about
and thats okay only because nowi got you all by surprise

last thoughts
I can never run out of things to say
when it comes to making you people understand the importance
What i say and speak to you all

If you think you got it down packed
than why do you have thoes stress build ups and take it out
on the people that you feel bad for after the fact of whats been done

Ps. Think of everything you do before you do it
your not only afecting you but everyone around you can get damaged from your afect

Off my Head

this is off my head
cuz im sitting here trying to work on something
but for some god damn reason i can't
im vex...i want pifff.. got a problem
you really think i care to listen?
by the way only and idot would answer that.

When i talk fresh out my mouth
it might come off as rude or mean
but to be honest you reallt think i have time to care
im tried of all them fucking people who take to much
and never think about how much it can hurt someone else
i mean if you go do something like bang a kid you going to get yours
if it aint by the karma going around than you better how you lay dead before i get you
nahh the only reason i got this thing going is cuz of the dumb asses in this world
im sorry to say but if your a dumb ass n you comment about how you liek this note
or how you think it got to me or something
not saying for the real people that i like
but if your one of the few i know is a fuck up
i am going to comment back
you may not like it
but to tell you the truth does it sound like i give a rats ass
....
let me chyll for a bit...

k so thats what a little on my mind here some thing for them Spoken word fans..

Have the feeling of blowing up
Up to the point you feel like a balloon filed with hatetred
i'm pased that point
i feel like i need to take some thing big
that lastes long n just blow the fuck out of something
ever had the feeling where you bent to the point
when in you punch or just take physical pain over emocional pain cause you can't take it
as kids or teens we may not relize that there is always a problem solver
may not be the way you like it but there is and in the long end it helps over all
...
i just got stuck im done...

Falling off

One night
One life

Can't live it all out in one night
let alone one life doesn't last as long as you want it to
i mean when it comees to the problems
Just let them fall off
you don't want to hold them
It goes hard when you think to much about it
It can really take a hit to your own brian
just when you think you can handle as much as the rest
maybe your the special one to fall off everyones mind
and if so take the time to do better than you were doing
don't be like some one who will take it for granded and end up paying for it
use what you have be strong surpirse the people from what they are used to seeing you
when your about to the point where you can't take no more
dress to impress because you never know who is watching

i thought that was weak
my friend told me it wasn't
okay here

I don't know how to explain the feeling
i mean the one you get when things going to wrong
just when you lost hope and feel like falling off
but they tell you to believe in something
to keep you going hard and strong
alot of people believe that god will get them through it all
but from where he stands
ha he can only watch you suffer if your not willing to do anything about it
so get your ass up from the ditch you dumb ass hoe
stand for whats right and think your stronger than what you really know
i mean the mind plays amaizing tricks on some people
and if you got that power to either show people how to think or change it so they can see
and i don't mean with your eye i mean with your mind
open it to a new chapater and get back out there

last thoughts
either do what your best is
or just stop living at all cause your just a waste of a body to add to our world pollution

Come Harder

When you get popped in the face Come harder
like when your girl giving me brains and i be chocking her with it come harder
watching your marks not going so good needa come harder
don't be on the side lines letting your moms get beat up by her man come harder
Your friends be leaving your side no time to cry come harder
never done things on your own time now to get up and come harder
get what you want take no shit come harder
listen to the main people they have things to say but come harder
when you think your to good for the rest...
better check your stats again and come harder

When dealing in the face of the world theres always some on harder
i mean i aint on to brag but i don't joke i come harder than your mom blows my boss
watch you think you got your stats going harder than everyone elses
when you let your gard down thats when the underdog comes harder
never been the one to go looking for trouble
but when it comes i make sure i come harder
i know im not the hardest when it comes to anything bigger than i can handle
but when its on my dinner plate i make sure i over come anything to come harder
they say what wont kill you makes you stronger
haha come harder!

I'm like the Finex from the fire
no one can keep me down cuz i be coming back
just when you thought all hope was lost for me
i be jumping out of the flames like nothing happend
only cause i come harder
listen to the words i say
they be getting you scared for when i come out
cause when i come out Im a come Harder